I woke up feeling very out of sorts this morning. I was in a level way past the sort of pain that I can deal with and not in the sort of mood to cope effectively.
I rolled out of bed, early because I had a Feldenkrais appointment. Unfortunately, some main roads near my house are still closed from the recent flooding. This means that an insane amount of extra traffic is being diverted past my house and getting out of the estate in the morning can take around 45 minutes. That’s the amount of time it usually takes me to get to my appointment! Knowing I’d never make it on time, or in a reasonable condition if I did decide to sit in the car that long, I had to move my appointment to next week.
It’s frustrating to wake to both pain and disappointment. I got all overwhelmed and sooky and far more worked up than I needed to be. I have a few deadlines for different events looming and was feeling incapable of doing anything.
After a little while, I realised that I needed to improve my physical condition if I hoped to achieve any of the things that were weighing on my mind. Out went my plans of writing, sewing and organising and in came plans of tackling my pain and nourishing my wellbeing.
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I am fairly proud of the mental turnaround. I woke up my thinker with some coffee, whilst distracting it with 90210. I took some painkillers and settled into the couch until they kicked in. The next two hours or so I spent soaking in the tub, reading, exfoliating and generally relaxing.
The sun shined divinely today. Sun is something that my skin doesn’t see enough of. I dragged out my comfy outdoor recliner and basked in the Vitamin D for about 15 minutes, any longer would have involved sunscreen and I wasn’t in the mood for greasing up.
Next came the quick construction of a plan to handle the final preparations for my costume and also one for my prince. Turns out I had a blouse in the cupboard that, on a man, looks very 18th Century…who’da thunk it? I’ll op-shop for pants and shoes, add some frills and he’s done. Having those issues settled allowed my anxiety to calm its ass down a bit.
All this relaxation had gotten my pain low enough for me to have the courage to do some very gentle Feldenkrais. I approached the movements really slowly and gently and managed to iron out some of my kinks.
For my final pat on the back, I have eaten nothing but healthy stuff, which has been something I often try to do and never quite make it. I’m pleased to say that I am making progress, craving much less sugar and getting a wider variety of fruit and vegetables into my belly.
Today might not have been the day that I wanted to wake up to, but I think I did pretty well making the most of it. It’s easy to get overwhelmed on a weak day, but not impossible to correct my perspective if I focus on what is important.
I now feel ready to have a good sleep and get productive and back to the things I need to do tomorrow…which is much better than I would have felt if I’d spent all day worrying about the things that I could not do.
Love & The Daily Grind,
P.S. Tomorrow is Love Beats Hate day, hurrah!