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A New Painting & A Dip in the Hydrotherapsea

Dear Audy,

It’s still pretty hot and awful around here…but thankfully not 45 degrees and thankfully there is cloud cover! I can’t wait for it to be cool enough for me to actually wear something over my underwear again…

I’m pretty impressed with myself for managing to get something artistic done this week, I hadn’t completed anything for some time! Meet the next imaginaiad, her name is Marjorie. Marjorie is pretty quiet, but that doesn’t mean she’s not bursting with inspiration, she’s just deliberating carefully. I rather like the ambiguity in her expression, from a distance she appears to be pouting or bored, but up close you’ll see she’s smiling…Marjorie doesn’t like to show you all her cards, all at once, she likes to keep you guessing. For an imaginaiad, she’s pretty controlling, rather than spew forth her colours and let her artist sort them out, she likes to tease her artist with multiple plans and ideas that she won’t inspire action on until she’s planned out all the kinks. She’s kinda cheeky that way. Marjorie inspires Michelle from over at Beautiful Soup.

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Yesterday I went swimming at the beach! I have not done that in a long time. I love the beach, before I had RSD I would take myself there all the time. Mostly I would end up driving down alone because of a lack of interested friends…it seems a lot of people see going to the beach as a big effort expedition, whereas I find nipping down for a dip totally worth the shower. I don’t care about sand and salt…those are kind of fun…it all comes off in the wash. Post RSD, I am unable to take myself to the beach, thus my not getting to go very often, this can be extremely frustrating as I can smell the ocean from my apartment….

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I was very excited to catch up with my friend whilst enjoying the cool, ocean breeze. I’ve been doing hydrotherapy in a pool in recent weeks, what I forgot about the ocean is how much more buoyant it makes you, it was so easy to float on the surface and relax and stretch my body. It was also a lot of fun to bob in the waves!

I’m a little sore today…but nothing that would stop me going back.

Love & Salt Water,
Caf

P.S. Marjorie will be up on Redbubble shortly…RB is down right now!

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  • The Completion Of Ada

    Dear Audy,

    The fifth imaginaiad is finally complete! Ada has taught me a lot…most importantly that the paper I was using was not thick enough and it got a little worn and buckled. It made her a little hard to photograph, she’s been cut out digitally so the uploaded image is not quite true to form…but close enough.

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    She is most excited to be complete and looking very forward to framing. You can check out a larger version of her here

    I’m still absolutely fascinated by these colours in my head…I have always had a knack for remembering birthdays, I still remember the birthdays of people that I haven’t been friends with in years. One of my oldest friends has her birthday on March 23rd. For some reason, I always had particular trouble remembering her birthday, I kept confusing March with April and the 23rd with every date from the 22nd to the 28th. I’ve now realised that this is because March and April are very similar shades of red (April is quite primary, with March slightly oranger) and that the sequence of numbers from 22-28 is also red (slightly darker than April). The colour confusion doesn’t stop me remembering her birthday anymore, I’ve spent a lot of time concentrating on memorising it, however it certainly highlights the way in which my synesthesia has been assisting my memory of dates.

    I just realised that the way I remember the date now is specifically in black, just like the text on a printed page…perhaps my brain needed to eliminate colour completely in order to overcome the confusion it was causing….interesting.

    Hope you are having an inspiring week, Audy, and enjoying all the Christmas sparkles!

    Love & A Satisfied Sigh,
    Caf

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  • Synesthesia… My World Of Colours

    Dear Audy,

    I have spent the last few days in a painful blur….an evil flu type bug got me and shook me up and spun my weakened insides until I curled up in a ball and cried. I finally went to the doctor and got me some antibiotics and I am feeling a bit better today…no parts of me are stabbing me right now so that is nice.

    I have been reading a fascinating book, Audy, Musicophilia by Oliver Sacks. It explores different ways that music effects the brain and recounts tales of people who’s brains are fundamentally different than the norm and the ways in which their perception or interpretation is altered.

    I find evolutionary theories compelling, Musicophilia has introduced me to a couple and one in particular that dances through my brain…imagine a world in which humans had developed to communicate through music over language. It has been theorised that perhaps the physiological reaction that music can bring and the emotional response is an undeveloped communication faculty. People who have absolute pitch can hear each note distinct from all others, similar to how one visually perceives colours as being distinct from other colours; for example, it is common for people to be able to locate notes in relation to other notes such as recognising C and thus being able to identify A in comparison, however identifying blue only in relation to red is something that might seem ridiculous. A person with absolute pitch could tell you what note the cicadas were singing, or what note the pots hit when you dropped them on the floor. If the majority of humans were capable of absolute pitch, then it would seem possible that perhaps notes and the emotional reaction they induce could be used as a means of communicating…such as the alphabet is.

    The most exciting chapter I have read to date is entitled The Key of Clear Green: Synesthesia and Music. It has introduced me to the very concept of synesthesia, Sacks explains, ‘For a true synesthete, there is no “as if” – simply an instant conjoining of sensations. This may involve any of the senses – for example, one person may perceive individual letters or days of the week as having their own particular colours; another may feel that every colour has its own peculiar smell, or every musical interval has its own taste”.

    When I read the above I stopped and hit the page and exclaimed “Hey! I do that!”. For as long as I can remember the days of the week have had their own colours. They are always the same colour, however the transparency can very dependent on the importance of the day, this is something I have always used as a memory tool. The day itself is also broken up by transparency if I am thinking of the day alone, the morning is lighter and slowly gets darker toward the evening. It’s something I have always taken for granted, that peripheral part of my brain that I don’t always pay attention to kind of thought they were colours that had been imprinted from watching Play School, but I don’t see how that would explain the transparency thing….this is my week in colours:

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    The months of the year also have colours in my head and numbers seemed to be grouped into colours. It takes a weird concentration to think about them consciously and the more I do, the more I realise how many things in my brain are being recorded and stored using colours…I’m starting to think that this is how I see everything. It’s not that I don’t perceive the actual colour of things, but it’s like when I remember them I drop them into the blue, or the red, or the weird colour that I can’t even name box.

    Songs have colours. I have recognised these associated with lyrics and it’s how I remember them however, until now, I have never paid attention to colours swimming through rhythm or the way different instruments have coloured tinges that distinguish them from one another…but they are all there, they have just been kind of operating unnoticed all this time…I have known for a long time that I remember things visually, however I just never noticed that the visuals have this kind of unwarranted ‘coloured’ aspect.

    The most interesting thing I have contemplated so far, Audy, is my imaginaiads. You can check them out here. I don’t consciously choose their colours, they just happen, kind of like they choose themselves and they are very exact, right down to their faces, it is something I see rather than make up…if that makes sense. This sense of seeing usually extends to naming also, they have their names and all other names simply sound wrong to me, kind of like if you tried to convince me that that table is a beanbag. I am starting to think that on some level the imaginaiads I see are some sort of interpretation of the colours I associate with a person or what I know about a person….

    I’ve written a lot today, Audy, it’s just so fascinating! Do you see colours where there are none??

    Love & Colours,
    Caf

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  • It’s Hailing Inspiration

    Dear Audy,

    Sticking to my perspective that art is productive, I have had a very productive day! I’ve been getting over a cold and today, after a few days of fog, I woke up feeling inspired. I was so inspired that I had trouble going back to sleep (as it was ridiculously early when I woke up) and kept coming up with ideas about different projects that have been stirring in my mind for a while…I came up with a brilliant sewing project that I’m dying to try, it’s a small item so I might be able to do it even incapacitated. I’m keeping it a secret until I can see if it works…

    Today I decided to focus my energy into finishing a project that I can’t believe I’ve had sitting there unfinished for so long…my painting of Ada. I seemed to hit some sort of block and just wasn’t inclined to work on this painting for a while…but today I was back at it full throttle. Ada is the latest in my collection of imaginaiaids, she’s the nymph that inspires a friend of mine.

    I got swept up into the painting realm and played there in that reverie for five albums…inspiring my ears today were Stephanie Dosen, K.T. Tunstall, She & Him, Regina Spektor & Jenny Owens Young….I guess you could say it was a girly sing-a-long kinda day!
    Here’s a little sneak peek at where she’s at…it might seem like I have been painting this for as long as time has existed…but it’s all in the details, Audy.

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    I’ve had a few little smudgy mishaps and learnt a few valuable lessons, but I reckon she’s pretty happy with her depiction!

    In other news…we had an awesome hail storm a few days ago. Hail the size of marbles came pelting down like the clouds had decided to go to war. They seemed to be flying onto my balcony from all angles…my poor little succulent babies suffered a little damage, they don’t fair so well in hail!

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    I’m all worn out now! Hope Rella is fired up again tomorrow!

    Love & Random Inspiration,

    Caf

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  • That Thing On My Head & My Voice On Tape

    Dear Audy,

    Ha, check me out…writing to you again so soon…I just missed you and your pretty multi-personed face!

    The episode of sbigpod featuring myself as a giggling reviewer is now up at sbigpod.com….I’m suffering from that hearing your own voice on tape thing…I thought I had abolished my little lisp but apparently not!

    Listen here:

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    I was up early yesterday (I was up with the birds)…sorry, I can’t refer to being up early without hearing the Holly Throsby song that goes…strangely enough…We’re up early, We’re up with the birds…I decided to use my early rising to be productive and after cleaning as much as my limited abilities allowed, I was feeling pretty chuffed with myself. One of the most important aspects of me staying sane is remembering that just because I can’t do all of the things I used to doesn’t mean that I can’t do anything…it’s about little bits at a time. As a result of my cleaning I was free to enjoy an afternoon with my watercolour pencils with no I should be doing something productive guilt….hmmm, Audy….next step is remembering art IS productive!

    Da da duuuuuummmmmmmmmm……it was a fairy crown! Well, it will be a fairy crown with some more detailing, now it’s kind of a blobby crown. It also turned out that I needed to paint the forest around me and that is wading through the blobby stages also…It’s my first background!! And I didn’t even know it was coming…art will surprise you like that. Does art sneak up on you, Audy?

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    I did love the suggestion of a bird on my head though….that might be my next adventure!!

    Love & Fairy Crowns,

    Caf

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  • Appreciating Appreciation…Never Believe It Can’t Get Worse

    Dear Audy,

    I’m a one handed bandit on the keyboard today. The going is slow.

    Last night I had a horrible attack of burning pain…right through my body. It’s calmer today but feel like my left arm got mushed in a giant ironing press (giant things=scarier). Constant pain, more if I move it. I still have weeks before I get the second lot of test results for rheumatoid arthritis…but all I know if is that’s what this is then it sure burns like RSD. I’d describe the pain as unbearable, except that that description never made sense to me…quite obviously if I’m not dead then I’m bearing it…but my face flinches a lot.

    I can’t explain how frustrating it is to be attacked from the inside…and as frustrating as it is to be misunderstood, for your sake I really hope that you don’t get it, Audy.

    I am going to continue to keep calm and distract myself in any way I can…yesterday I spent a couple of hours painting on my lap with my watercolour pencils, they are the easiest medium to control with minimal wrist movement. ‘m working on a self portrait, most likely destined to be a profile pic…I figure if I practise drawing me then I won’t insult anyone with an ugly painting! This is the first watercolour I’ve built without sketching…aim is to be semi-realistic but with the alterations that happen once Rella gets a hold of an image…she likes things to be pretty and frankly I don’t have a problem with that.

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    Wanna guess what’s going to go on my head? Go on, guess, it will amuse me…actuallly I think I sent you the picture in an earlier letter…

    Love & Hoping for Respite,

    Caf

    P.S. Thank you dearly for your letters, they are very comforting…I will try to reply as soon as I can but please understand when it takes a while…and don’t forget to leave a return address!

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  • Oh How Quaint, She Learns To Paint

    Dear Audy,

    My break from the city is winding down and whilst I’m looking forward to going home to my own bed, I’m definitely going to miss having space around me! I’m also a little concerned about where I’m going to get my trash fix without daily America’s Next Top Model….sigh….I really have been living in the lap of luxury! Grin.

    I touched up my puppy painting and decided not to give Vito a hat in the end. You see, Audy, it’s my first painting and I’m kinda proud of how it came out so I don’t want to go messing it up! I’ll just paint him in a hat another day…What do you think?

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    For my next canvas (oh, check me out Audy, using artist talk) I’m painting a couple and a pretty dress. I copied the sketch from a photo in and Australian Ballet book. The photo is black and white but I am going to do the dress in colour…although I haven’t quite decided which or how much colour. I scored myself some cheap but effective, wide, flat paintbrushes that made painting the background a lot easier. It definitely pays to have the right tools! I currently have a lovely black canvas…with a slightly smoky floor for them to dance on. I might get a chance to finish it off this afternoon…but I might also take my book to the park so the dancers might not be able to get their groove on until I go home to my home.

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    It’s a beautiful day outside and I’m going to go make the most of it. Until next time, dear Audy, stay safe, stay happy….and watch out for wayward kites.

    Love & Canvas,

    Caf

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  • A Little Lesson In Acrylic Puppies

    Dear Audy,

    The good news is that my test results were all negative….so on to the next batch of tests. This time I have to sit in this waiting room of my life for another 6 weeks….sigh

    I had an exciting lesson this week! A friend came and showed me how to work the crazy acrylic paints that were outwitting me. Vito the Gobbledog was our handsome subject, however we decided to paint him in his puppy days when he was significantly cuter.

    Here’s me working away…shortly after I was barked at to “Move onto the second layer!”….it’s hard to move on. It has taken me a long time to get to this point and teach is already far, far ahead….her puppy has a face and everything.

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    My painting speed was too slow for my lesson and thus I soldiered on alone, enjoying myself mixing up colours and playing around. Finally, the sun started to drop and I realised it was packing up time. Here’s where I finished up….

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    I am adamant that he needs a funny hat…a birthday hat maybe, or a top hat, or an Akubra, or a bonnet…there’s something about Vito that demands to be made fun of. He’s far too hilarious to just leave him like this…with no hat. What do you think, Audy? Bunny ears? Oooh….maybe bunny ears….Playboy Vito….

    Love & Brush Strokes,

    Caf

    P.S. It would be irresponsible of me not to add…if you are planning on getting your glam on this spring racing carnival….DO IT IN FLATS!

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  • Seeking Distraction In South East Melbourne

    Dear Audy,

    I’m terribly sorry to have not written for so long, I’ve been settling into a new location, struggling against connection issues and a suffering a lingering pain in the belly. The wind must be blowing the right way today as I’ve managed to stay online all morning…my right hand is being a little brat lately so I’m having to get used to typing and mousing with the lefty.

    The wait for an answer continues…tests beget tests beget tests….my battle for distraction drives on!

    I’m enjoying a break from my little shoe box, dogsitting for a dear little Australian bulldog named Vito. He is possibly the most hilarious dog I’ve ever known and has the least understanding of the fact that he is a dog at all. This is where he was when I got up the other day…having a little outdoor party for one…

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    He is also a fan of sitting up in recliners and purrs like a cat when he gets pats…like I said, Audy, very strange little guy…

    It’s been nice having some peace and quiet, I’ve had a chance to play with my new paintbrushes, with a new medium. Acrylic paints are still outwitting me. This is my effort at a background…I dripped some water down the front that I’ll have to paint over. The texture is sticky and strange, I’m a gonna need some work to get the hang of this…any advice, Audy?

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    I kept myself entertained doing a little writing for a friend during the week. She is directing a play for a little drama class in a dance school. Apparently, Friends is really hip with these kids…go rerun power! My friend wanted to give them a script they could get excited about, so I wrote them a little Friends spoof entitled Buddies ep 1: The One With The Talent Show. Chandler and Ross had to become girls (Charlie & Rose) and it had to include ‘Dance in Film’ somehow so the plot revolves around a little production to find out whether Phoebe (Pippi) or Monica (Monique) has more talent. Ahhhhh, it was fun, I had to channel that inner high school Caf that had to write this sort of thing for Drama classes…

    I’ve also been doing a little sketching, I’ll introduce you to a little friend of Lalaini’s soon.

    Love & Distractions,

    Caf

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  • Texas Pete! I Knew It Was You…

    Dear Audy,

    It turns out there is some sort of rheumatoid thing roaming around my blood. Just roaming around…inflaming whatever it likes…snickering at my pain…I don’t know much more than that because I need to see a rheumatologist – at least there is an ologist for everything!

    I’m naming the rheumatoid factor after the evil villain that was constantly thwarted by Superted, Texas Pete. I plan to make like that streak of red and do some thwarting of my own!

    It is nice to know that there is a reason why weird things keep happening to my body and that I’m treatable…now I just need to wait to find out what the treatment is! I wish I could explain the concept of waiting to my hip…it is being a right turd. Yes, turd. It’s like it’s angry at being found out…well, hip…busted! I am so gonna fix you!!

    I try to hold back on the head foggifying medication as much as I can…sometimes I win and sometimes the pain wins and then I get grumpy and groggy…but hey, I think I’m playing my cards okay, all things considered.

    I drew this quite a while ago with smudgy oil pastels…

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    sometimes she don’t wanna face facts
    sometimes she just wants to relax….

    It’s a groggy day but I’m not giving in to the grumpies…I have a pretty vase of yellow and blue irises keeping me company thanks to my charming prince and an amusing book set in Wonderland called The Looking Glass Wars and I’m pretty sure there’s a nice hot bath in my near future…

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    I think there’s something magical about blooming…

    Love & “Patience”

    Caf

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