I actually feel better than I have been feeling over the past few weeks, everybody cheer!
In exciting news, my latest article for ABC Ramp Up, Chronic pain; unlocking the mystery, can be found here.
In the spirit of spreading awareness, I also wanted to share this video. It introduces a few people experiencing chronic pain and illness, including Complex Regional Pain Syndrome. Ashley has done a fantastic job putting this together! I am also super impressed by Sarah, one of the subjects, who is able to jump rope on a pogo stick…
I think that I am finally starting to adjust to being without Lyrica. My Feldenkrais practitioner gave an excellent explanation for what it feels like to come off medication like this: for years, the medication has been keeping my hypersensitivity volume dial on low and now it’s been turned up. That doesn’t mean that I need the medication to get the pain level back down, that simply means I need to remain calm as my body adjusts. Even though my symptoms have been flaring around like crazy, it’s only temporary.
My body is actually responding to this increase in pain and hypersensitivity better than it would have at earlier stages of my journey with CRPS. By being committed to practising Feldenkrais every day, I have been able to keep most of my muscles free and my skeleton aligned. This makes a big difference to the amount of pain I feel and will help me to get through this adjustment period as quickly as possible.
Despite my pain, I managed to take myself out last night to see a friend performing in the Melbourne International Comedy Festival. This was a huge achievement as I had been trying to make it to the show all week! A glass of wine and a good laugh made for a very pleasant evening indeed. I am so glad that my determination was able to overcome my fear. Sure, I am extra sore today from the exertion, but I don’t have to do anything today, so that doesn’t really matter now, does it?
I am not afraid that this pain is actually damaging to me at all, it is simply something that exists, is unpleasant and will pass. This acceptance and understanding has been something that I’ve been trying to achieve for years, I feel so triumphant for finally getting there!
I hurt, I tire, but I am not afraid.
Love & Progress,